tomorrow will be sustainable

we can't help unless you have a disconnection notice. they won't issue one until your account has been overdue for three months. at which point you'll never be able to crawl back out of the hole of debt that this is creating. we're like a man missing one arm. you can't swim, all you can do is tread water. (oh but it gets tiring)

sometimes it seems like this existence was created by the gods purely for their amusement. it's like that story someone told me once at some silly convention... "two people died, one went to heaven and one to hell. after a week they happened to see each other and stopped to say hello. the one who went to heaven said, "oh, heaven is so beautiful. everyone feeds each other, and the food is bountiful, no one goes hungry." the one who went to hell said, "oh, hell is so terrible! no one can use his own hands to feed himself! there are piles of food, but everyone goes hungry!" the irony being that they were the same exact place -- the people who went to heaven fed each other and flourished, the people who went to hell closed themselves off from each other and suffered. all a matter of perspective. silly and juvenile, yet apt which makes it disgusting.

and if i could i would spend all day feeding everyone, even if that meant that i starve. (an ethic i learned from my father and observed also in euclidus.) each one reach one. no one is left behind.